First Timer

So, I got signed up, filled in all the profile info, sit down, roll up the sleeves and get writers block. Ugh. Oh warning, English majors I like parenthesis, the words "so" and "and", and run on sentences, so you'll have to deal. oh, and commas too.

I am a mother of 2, wife (of 1), leader of a company, sometimes student of an MBA program, board member of an association, friendly, sarcastic, dry, well-rounded (pun intended), workaholic.

I am on a continuous journey to "find myself" which isn't quite right since I didn't really "lose myself" to begin with. I am constantly learning and being educated by life. My children, as little reflections of their parents, are my greatest teachers.

I turned 36 this month, which isn't especially meaningful except that a person could get really depressed thinking that their life could be 1/2 over by now, assuming one didn't think that since they were 25! So where does that leave a woman who has so many time-consuming roles? It leaves us crazy and with multiple personalities, multi-tasking at its finest, to the point we loose our minds and put our keys in the fridge and call our kids by the dogs name (which they'll remember and I'm sure the story will be "Mom ALWAYS called me by the dogs name, she was so".....I don't know, damaged in some way).  On the other hand, 36 is just right, when we have some work/life/family experiences, we start "settling in" to our skins and finding new furniture rather than the hand-me-down mattress that your grandma used for longer than you've been alive and "it's still good". But really other than new mattresses and settling skin, what have we done for ourselves lately?

I keep changing between we and I because I am part of the community of women everywhere in the world who do the best they can to make it work, every day. I am completely stressed out and finally forcing myself to pay attention to me.  Having emergency removal of my gall bladder in March reminded me that life is what I make it, not just one obstacle (managing a team, dishes, laundry, conflict resolution for brothers/sisters that keep "Mom s/he's mocking me", choice of cake or an apple) after another day to day handling what comes my way with a (sparkling white) smile, a little toss of the (Natural Instinct colorized) hair over the bronzed bare shoulder, in the latest fashion sun dress, and freshly manicured nails (yeah right). So what am I doing about it?  It's a process. (Kinda like reading that last sentence! Regardless, You get the point)

I'm lucky to have a supportive husband and family to help me keep balanced. There's only so much they can take until they let me know (usually in that whiny, I need mommy to snuggle voice and 'tude about how "daddy lets me", or say letting the dishes pile up until h.e.-double hockey stick freezes over). Not a complaint but definitely a shift in gears. Solution = shift gears, family is more important than anything else. Get balanced again. You can always get up early to catch up on work (or dishes)!

So this was kinda fun. Hope you enjoy it as much as I do.

P.S. *some or all parts of the title of this blog may or may not have been recycled from a motto at work
P.P.S. *does it count as recycling if they are still using it?